results came in last evening...it is indeed a fibroadenoma!
one would think that in hearing this news i would have been ecstatic.
this experience...and my reaction to it has just not ceased to surprise me.
after having waited 4 days *3 days in, i was still in a good place* i had lost control of my thoughts a little.
i was playing head games most of yesterday.
when my surgeon called, she was between surgeries so she was VERY brief.
again...i needed time to process, which frustrated me.
i had previously arranged to meet someone for dinner...and was in such a funk i didn't feel like going.
thankfully, i did and it was just what i needed to get back into "life".
*thanks kimmie ;0)*
by 10pm last night i was living in a new found joy!
i feel constantly reminded to live in EVERY moment.
having "well" children...i've learned first hand to appreciate.
knowing the freedom of not being cooped up in a hospital.
now with my own personal experience...i have MUCH more empathy, for what is becoming a common diagnosis of breast cancer.
i look at dragging myself out of bed to run differently...i am able...my body is able, i feel fortunate.
the foods that i put into my body...i've considered this often since my cleanse last year.
we are meant to eat for the purpose of nourishing our bodies...not for personal pleasure.
i don't want to find myself in a place where i am eating in a rigid fashion, as a way to fight for my life, and have regrets about the things i have put into my body.
i want to fill my body with the things it needs now.
as always...good has come of this.
i was prepared to use it for His glory.
i'm grateful i haven't been asked to walk that road at this time.
i'm taking my kids camping this weekend.
without michael. *he has to work*
we've never been camping.
the kids are excited.
i am too.
the ability to camp, in 90 degree weather this weekend, with the possibility of rain...
means that i am not recovering from surgery, to remove a malignant mass.
instead i will be making memories with my children...ones we are sure to never forget!
thank you for your thoughts, prayers, and words of encouragement.
this experience has shown me how loved i am...and who is joining me on this journey called "life".
6 comments:
I am so happy for you! That is definitely an answered prayer!
This is SO good to hear, Amber!! Enjoy life, live it to the fullest, take nothing for granted. I know these are things you already do, but this post is a good reminder to the rest of us. :-)
i cannot tell you how much you have been on my heart. i have been checking in but not always able to comment at the time. please know how much we are thinking about and praying for you. you are such an inspiration to us...seriously.
we love you and continue to hold you close and pray, my friend. and thank you so much for sharing the journey.
love,
victoria
I have been thinking so much about you!! I'm so happy to read your updates. Feeling so glad that you have been able to take a new perspective away from this experience. I agree with Victoria...you are a constant inspiration! Have fun camping! What a fun little adventure that will be for you and the kids. xo
So glad our prayers (and yours of course) were answered!
I am so happy to hear this. Ive had you on my mind for the past few days. Reading this post has encouraged me. I have just moved to Texas away from a lot of my family and I am so home sick. I have also been having terrible panic attacks and today I went to the Dr. because I thought something was wrong with my lady bits:-( I had a good report that all is well. I have wasted a lot of time thinking about what Ive lost lately more than what I have. God used you in my life today. Thank you!!
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